Alhamdulillah, as for today, our heart can still pumps, eyes can still see, ears can still hear, mouth can still talks, and many others nikmat (gift) Allah, the greatest of all had given us.
Today I feel sorrow, and despair as my body does not allow me to do lots of things for Allah, then, I remembered how I dearly missing all the past hours I spent ineffectively. I wished that I will not repeat it again. Though we humans tend to make mistakes, repent, and do it again, the cycle continues, however, I still believe that we have the utmost power to control ourselves, after Allah surely.
"Self conquest is the greatest of all victories" Plato. This quote really emphasizes us to gain control of our own body and actions. We need to be focus in all times and places, no matter how hard and difficult life can gets. Always remember Allah will always be with us. He is the best guardian, he is our hero and savior. Never lose hope in Allah. There is no greater power than Him.
Despite the condition and weakness of this body, during our ill and sick times, we still have to try to get up and pray to Allah to gives us healthiness and may our sickness becomes an absolution for all evil and bad things we had done before, besides contributing to society. Perhaps, this is a test from Him to know how strong we are holding onto Islam, the true religion of all. Narrated by Abu Huraira radhiallahu 'anh, that the Prophet shallallahu' alaihi wasallam said: When Allah intends good to you, He will test it with difficulties .. (from what I understand)
Do people think that they will be left alone because they say: "We believe," and will not be tested.( Surah Al- Ankabut Verse 2)
Besides, we should always look to those people below us, which may increase our thankfulness to Allah. We will never ever be tested more than our capabilities.
(23:62) We do not burden anyone with
more than he can bear.
We should also look to those below us, not to look to those above us, thus we will be more thankful to Him. If we look at the current community, we can see that there are many people who are tested with a bigger and huge test compared to us, even so, they are also tested within their limitations. Allah knows better. So, never feel angry or disappointed with our tests, however, we should always hope that with every test makes us a better man, better Muslim. From Abu Hurayrah radhiallahu anhu said: Messenger of Allah alaihi wasallam shallallahu said:
انظروا إلى من أسفل منكم ولا تنظروا إلى من هو فوقكم فهو أجدر أن لا تزدروا نعمة الله
"Look who is under you, do not look those above you, the more will it make you belittle the grace of God." (HR. Muslim no. 5264) (from what I understand)
I remembered when I was young, I used to go for morning lectures at the mosque. There, I learned something valuable and precious. It is a story about sahabat of the prophet Muhammad p.b.u.h. Sahabat will be deeply worried, if they are healthy and fit for a whole week, they worried if Allah had forgot about them, and they really keep the words of the prophet in their heart, "for every misfortune, illness, anxiety, grief or pain that happen to a Muslim , even poked wound, Allah will remove his sins. ( from what I understand) in another hadith, Ibn Mas'ud radhiallahu 'ANH said: I visited the Prophet during his illness. I said, "O Messenger of Allah, you have high fever!" He shallallahu 'alaihi wasallam said, "My fever is two times (greater) than you .." I asked, "Is it because you get twice the reward?" Answer him "True .. There is no pain-stricken Muslims - even if only due to being poked wound - but God will remove his sins because of the pain, and his sins fall ironically such as leaves off a tree .. " (from my understanding)
Furthermore, when we are not in our best condition, we might be remembering Him more than when we are healthy and fit. Thus, it might be a gift which we might not know about it. There are 5 things that we must remember before 5 other things. They are, healthy before sick, young before old, rich before poor, free before tight, alive before dead. When we are still healthy, young, rich, free, and alive, give contributions to others and get nearer to Allah as we may not get the chance afterwards. Think about it.